Tuesday...

today has been a great day so far....

7-11 for their hot chocolate. :)

the new Paramore CD came out today :) SOOO good...

i am going to lunch with peeps from work that i haven't seen in awhile. it will be nice to catch up!

tonight is TNL ( tuesday night life) @ WEC ( waters edge church) it will be awesome :)

also...a little sports update...

Kasey Kahne finished 8th :) woohoo...he is still in last place in the chase...but im still happy he is even in it...we will get them...9 races to go...then it is all over :(

TECH WON :)

N.C. STATE WON :)

RAVENS WON :)

and again....the steelers LOST :)

until next time...

R.E.S.P.E.C.T. find out what it means to me...

before you start to read this....i am giving a disclaimer...these are just my thoughts and my ideas here...i am not trying to put anyone or anything down...just events that have happened over this past weekend...my feelings need to get out...

SO...Friday...i went out with my friend Sam, she works with me. we went out to celebrate Jessica's 21st! we had dinner at cheeseburger in paradise. we ate talked hung out. it was fun. then we went to CJ's the Karaoke bar at the bowling alley. one of my good friends works there, and wanted us to stop by and well it is just fun to watch people sing. sing a long and have a good ole time. so sam and i sat and talked laughed and hung out. it was nice. since we can't always act silly at work. she actually saw some people she knew so we were all talking. she had to leave since she had to work the next day...but DANG i wish she would have stayed. so i was sitting there talking to diana ( my friend who works at the bar) and friends. this guy approaches me. sits down and starts talking to me. i was like well ok....so he was asking what to do around here blah blah blah...well i was like trying to get him to pick up the point that well...i wasn't interested...so i turned and started to talk to my other friend who was there too...we were just laughing and having a good ole time. then he tires and start to talk to me again...i didn't want to be mean so i listen to what he had to say...he stopped talking to i turned to my friend to talk to him again...( i know you are wondering why are you telling me this...here it is...) the guy who walked up to me ( i didn't even catch his name...) starts to tell my friend that and i quote...." where can i go and get some hot girl....hotter than her ( talking about me)...and someone easy?" i know what you are thinking..." did he really just say that???"....oh yes he did...then he goes on and on about "how my friend can do so much better than me"..."why would he waste his time on me"...that "he knows my friend has had better than me"...blah blah blah...might i say that i have NEVER been so disrespected by a STRANGER!!!! so at this point...i am thinking to myself "whoa is he really saying this??"

1. he doesn't even know me...and that is straight disrespect.

2. well i still have my V-card. and i intend to hold on to that until i am married and give that gift to my husband. it is only for my husband, not some guy who comes up and tries to give me a line.

3. im not that girl...im not "easy"...i don't even put off that i am.

4. was he mad that i wasn't giving him what he wanted?..my bad but im not that girl, guys you can't always get what you want.

5. he is making guys look really bad at this point. who really says that??

6.respect, respect, respect, respect

7. i am sorry that he lives like this and thinks that it is ok to talk to girls like this, didn't his mother teach him better???.( yes these are all the thoughts that are going through my mind at the point he is saying all this)

So i tell him that he just needs to leave that no one really cares what he is saying...at this point?...i could not believe this...i was so upset...i mean really WOW who really says that?? So i had to get out of there...i walked out!! just to cool off...really who says that?? if you know me, i am SO big on RESPECT...you RESPECT me and i will RESPECT you... it is really that easy people ( try it on for size...i bet you like what you get...) this guy we will call him Mr. Disrespect. ( AKA Mr. D for short)...did he know me? did he know what i stand for? did he know what i believe?... so after i cooled down...i come back into the bar to see my honor being defended. my other friend was like..." you don't know her..", " you don't disrespect a girl like that", " you made her feel uncomfortable...that is just wrong"...blah blah blah ( these are good blah blah blah's )...so everyone had it out...even diana had to put people in their place...i felt like a little kid who totally just got beat up and i didn't even know what to say...so after a little while...i went home...totally had enough for the evening and wanted to leave...so i just am mulling over this when i was driving home, laying in bed, waking up the next morning, the next day so on and so forth...i feel so sad, mad and pukey ( is that a word...) all at the same time...

Soap Box Time...i feel so sad that people actually live their lives like this. don't they know that they were made for something so much bigger and better!! i feel so sad that people my age or even younger have no self respect anymore. they will just go out and get the next best thing. they don't care who is hooking up with who. don't just settle for someone who is going to disrespect you. i feel that i am like i am trying doing my best with my life, making the best decisions possible ( and not i am NOT perfect and yes i have messed up and yes made the wrong decisions) i am trying and be a Light in this dark little world we live in. People call me weird, people but me down, but these are my morals and my beliefs and you will be shocked but their are still people out there who care about morals etc. SO make fun of me do whatever...but sometimes it is SO hard to not let people and peoples words get in the way. ( like they did on Friday night)

Also to Mr. D whoever you are...and to guys reading this...1. puting a girl down just wrong. 2. it is all about respect. 3. girls don't like to be looked at like a piece of meat. girls want to be loved, RESPECTED, we like romance etc. 4. there are actually girls out there who respect themselves. 5. when a girl has morals, and beliefs, listen to them, respect them, because they mean something to us.

I say all of this...it is JUST A THOUGHT life is all about respect. respecting each other in relationships, at your job, with your family...guys...respect girls. you will be amazed what you will get in turn. sometimes you should just shut your mouth instead of puting some random chick down...who you have NO idea about. and what she stands for. girls...respect yourself! you mean something to someone. either to you mom or your dad, your boyfriend. your friends. who ever it is in your life. you have meaning and you are not a piece of meat. you deserve to be respected by anyone or anything in your life. ( i am not saying that guys don't deserve respect...cuz we all do:))

ok really i feel like this is a bunch of blah blah... and is really prob really hard to follow but don't people want to be RESPECTED?? It is a TWO way street. so start respecting those around you...don't just be mean to be mean...

RESPECT this is what it means to me...

encouragement...

so yesterday was a pretty ugh day at the ole work place. i felt like everything i did was wrong. i honestly felt like i was on the first day at the job. i was really discouraged. i wanted to hide under the desk praying and praying that 5 would get here fast. it is so hard sometimes when you are really frustrated to get out of the attitude of blah...so i went to the bathroom and got upset about it but then i stopped and i said a prayer to calm my heart, to be focused but to just endure...and it is amazing how things can turn around...we are not perfect people! so i am going to make mistakes from time to time...but it is so awesome to know that i have someone to fall back on when life gets a little tough from time to time...My God supplies all my needs....WHAT A HUGE BLESSING...i am blessed to have people in my life to remind me of that!

then later in the evening...we had group! Which was great....they talk about everything under the sun...but they want to learn and they want to be there!!! We talked about being the Light in the Dark world...(Britney did awesome :) teaching...) "God is light ; in him there is no darkness at all" - 1 John 1:5...then we turned and started talking about what examples we can be in the lives of those who are around us. Encouraging those who need to stay on the path of the Light...it was awesome to hear the girls talk about friends they want to help to encourage, to be the Light in this dark world....they are such a blessing to me :) I love that people encourage me...then I get encouraged to turn around and encourage them! Just a ton of encouragement going on here people...it is great. Be an encouragement to those around you...and be blessed by friends, family, co-workers...be a Light in this dark world....

Suspension.

this will always be my FAVORITE MAE song....take a listen...for those of you who have never heard them!!! It is from their Cd The Everglow...

weekend...

what is going on? i hope this blog finds you well. things for me have been good. i spent this past weekend with my family. mom was gone so i hung out with dad and the family :). we went out to eat on friday night to

it was ok...i didnt think it was worth all the hype...but i mean i would go again...but it was ok. ( the food was good though...). Saturday i started to house/pet sit...so i went to play with the dog and kitties :) then went to hang out with dad we went to Best Buy....i got the All Time Low CD...very good...i like it! We then went out to eat at Beef O' Bradys! So SO SO So good...it was nice to hang out with the family and talk sports and all of the above...( the pic is the one in Newport News...)

Well guess what time of year is getting here quick??? HALLOWEEN!! Well not that I am going to get dressed up and go out...well maybe...one day my nephew is going to be Harry Potter and I will go as his Hermione :) or i guess maybe Jenny...( well i won't spoill it for those who haven't read the book...ok where was i going...yes HALLOWEEN!! so my nephew only the coolest kid on this planet...is going to be a TURTLE :) ( which is so cute when he says it...oh man...melts your heart <3)

this isn't the one he is going to use...but you get the idea right??? :) but he is going to looks SO cute. we went costume hunting for him. they had to wait for the next shipment to come so he will get it when it comes...don't you worry...pic will come. last year he was a lion. well the cutest lion i have ever seen :) hehe. We went to wal-mart after that too...and i did something that i had never done before!! I LEFT MY BAG AT WAL-MART?? I felt like a total dork walking back into wal-mart to get my bag...i was SO mad...but oh well...that will never happen again. so people take the time to make sure that you got all your bags. i learned my lesson!!

Sunday was church and sports!!!! Church first...Rob spoke this Sunday...on INTEGRITY! Man so many people need to hear it. ( watersedgechurch.net - sundays talk) you should take a listen. The thing that I loved was the fact that Rob gave real life examples and things that he even struggles with!! It all was really something that we can all relate too. It doesn't have to be BIG things on intergrity...it can be the small things. Integrity is doing the right thing even when it is hard. For some people it is really hard to do the right thing...and for some it is like second nature, they don't even think about it they just do it. It can be telling a little lie, or watching something that you don't need to be watching, making the right choices. We all need to keep our Integrity in check! Be who we are in front of people and behind closed doors. Be an example of Christ everywhere...you will be blessed by the fact that you sitck to your integrity at all times. I think that we should all take the time to look at our integrity...is it where it needs to be? do you even care? care enough to change?

Now Sports...The first race to the chase...and Kasey had a blown engine!!! Ahh...i was sad...but it is ok he will get them next week!!

In other sports news of the weekend....haha. NC. State WON :) Tech WON :) Baltimore RAVENS WON:) and the best...the Steelers LOST :) HAHAHA. ( sorry peeps not a fan...)

Well that is me in a nut shell...haha. I know I am so random...but this is my life...

OH one more thing....

(m)orning by Mae the CD came out today :) i have heard all the songs already...but im gonna go pick up the cd :) such good stuff!!

alright im out...enough of my rambling :)

fireflies...

oh also in love with the song fireflies by owl city....i could listen to that song all day long...it makes me happy....heres the song....not the video...the video is pretty awesome as well...

my life be like (x2)

my life be like crazy this weekend/week!!! where has the time gone...that is why i haven't been able to blog as much...

this past Sunday, was a great one at WEC...we are in the middle of the series 'my life'. this week we were talking about 'my path' ...ohhh a good one! the decisions that we make lead to the path that we take ( duh?). haha. but no really...we are humans and we make so many mistakes in life. weither it is financially, or spiritual, or in relationships, at your job or whatever. but how do you get on the right path??? don't you want to have God in control of it all?! but how do we get there what do we do? goals....you have things you want to accomplish right? like for me. i have the desire to be a teacher. well for awhile it has been hidden but now i have a strong want to be a teacher. soooo how do i get there? i get people who are there and follow in their footsteps. i.e my sister. i mean i know i have to get my tests taken and all that jazz but follow a GOOD example and do what they do!! relationships are always a hard one. i mean we all think we know...but yet only few get it right. but don't you want God in your relationship? i have been in relationships where there was God and others that were not. he should be #1!!!!! it only makes sense and only works when you and your bf/gf are seeking after God...will things fall into place. So how do we get there? PRAY ABOUT IT....then follow those who have the relationship you want...ask questions...ask for help...do all you can to get what you want out of a relationship! Financially? oh money...what a stress right?! Man I want God to be in control of that!! since im not that good at it...well im trying to get a lot better with it. BUDGET BUDGET BUDGET! :) but I need prayer over it! I need to be more responsible...things are paid off...but saving and saving and did i mention saving? So how do we get better at that and make the right decision? ASK FOR HELP....maybe hand over credit cards. do some research? I think the big thing here is the fact that you just have to take the step in the right direction. Make the right call instead of hating yourself later...the principle is very easy...make right choices. get to where you want in life. down the path...to your destination to hit your goal. :) so surround yourself with good and positive people. and do the best that you can for living for the Lord and he will bless you in the end....be wise...like Solomon!!!

this week has been crazy yet awesome all at the same time...had our first student community group tonight!!! we had 12 girls!!! they are so cute and i am excited to see where things will go. they love to talk about anything and everyone....oh cute 6th grade girls :) hehe...

oh i went to the Richmond Race with my dad and family!! it was AWESOME....we got pit passes and saw a ton of drivers and just everything and everyone it was GREAT!!!! i loved it. i did see Kasey <3>

enough for now...im off to bed...hopefully...my eyes are heavy....Zzzzz...

teenagers..

are the BOMB :) haha. so many people are so scared of teenagers like they are going to like beat you up or something. Teenagers are AMAZING. I really feel that God has put a passion in my heart for teenagers! Last night my eyes were opened to the fact that there are teenagers who want to step out and be and example to their peers and really step out for God and be the ONE who can make a different and be blessed by Him! For those of you that do not know I am helping serve on the student leadership at WEC ( waters edge church...if you didnt know :)) what a blessing it has been even in just a short time. I am a co-leader for the 6th grade girls. They are just to cute and way to funny! I wonder if I was like that when I was in 6th grade!?! We have our first student community group next wednesday! I mean I am nervous and excited all at the same time! I am just so excited and blessed that I am apart of something that is SO much bigger than I am. In my life all I want to do is help and serve, I feel so at peace helping others. It def is weird going into a group that people are already tight and have been for awhile, it will take some time getting use to. All I can say is that the leadership and the leaders have been nothing but loving and helpful, and have totally opened their arms to me. I really feel blessed to be apart of this. I pray that I am the example in thier lives to be the ONE to step out, even if they are new to this whole " God thing ". Being a leader means a lot of things, but it also helps you put things in perspective of what you need to do in your life. How can you lead if you know you aren't living for Him, but telling your students to live for Him?! I feel like ever since I have been attending WEC, that the purpose of life has more meaning, it is getting me back on the right path with my life. I am so blessed to have these people in my life...I know that this is a total God thing. They have come into my life at a time where I do need peope like them. I pray over the year that I will be with these girls. I pray that there lives will be changed. I pray that I can be the example that they need in their life. That friendships will be formed, trust will grow, and we are open to what God has instore for us!
"Teach me to do your will for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground"

~Psalm 143:10

Also update on the fast....been doing really good with it! No fast food this week! I mean yes it has been only 3 days...but I am feeling at peace with my choice. It is more packing of lunch, packing sandwiches and stuff. I am just feeling so good about life. I mean things can be messed up but yet so put into place. Love it!!!

Don't spend...SAVE!!

So this is a random post but my finances lately have totally been stressing me out!!! I know money stresses alot of people out but lately I feel like all I have been doing is just trying to catch up on this and that. Then when I do catch up, something happens and you are back at where you started. So this past weekend I sat down and looked at where my money really has been going I have been praying about it and trying to do the right thing with my money, because it is just me and my little paychecks. So I have decided that I spend alot of my extra money on FOOD! (aka....fast food...) which i really don't need anyway but FOOD!!! I mean yes it is needed to live and have strength but I think that I need to take a break from fast food. Save that money that I spend on fast food and use it for bills, or paying off my studet loans or just SAVE MONEY!!! I need to do a lot better with my spending, if I would like to do what I want in life I need to be responsible with my money.I am going to take a 40 day fast from fast food! It helps out with my pocket ( saving cash), and my girlish figure( which that is just a plus)- killing two birds with one stone? :). My challenge to myself save money not spending it on silly things like fast food everyday, which means more packing of food, or going home instead of hitting, taco bell, McDonalds, wendys, etc. I am going to journal this and keep you updated on this. I do ask for your prayers because I do know that this will be a lot harder than it seems!! * I pray that this will bring good change...over my finances* Don't spend...SAVE.

:)

one of my favorite bands....playing one of my favorite songs...i was playing on you tube today and i found it :)

paramore is covering here you me - by jimmy eat world.

my life be like...

so at church yesterday we started a new series called "my life". which i really didn't know what to expect...but i was excited to hear it. man.....i so needed to hear that yesterday. as humans we all have these plans we want to do to accomplish by this time or that time. we need to do this. we have to do that. but yet when we don't get there we get upset, we get mad, we get bitter, we get lost, we get off on the road and get lost. For me...that has been me for the past two years or so. i thought life was going this way...yet it went totally the other way. i had to learn to adapt to what was going on around me, and just try and figure things out, which way to i go? up, down, right, left? i was so scared to make a wrong choice, go the wrong way. have you ever felt like you were living life going the wrong way on a one way street? yes! that is me...where am i? how did i get here? why did i get here? yet it is my life and my life is not my own. My life is HIS. HIS timing. we as Christians are so wanting to do this now, when it is good for us, we don't look at our life as HIS life...we get so caught up in, "my life should have already been this", or" i should have already done this". Like myself we get caught up in our own detours....we get down in the dumps...why? why? why? why?....that is all we want to know...we want to know all the answers...but that is what i love about MY GOD...he teaches us great things while we are wanting to find out all the answers. we will one day know why, we will one day understand all the answers. all we have to do is sit back and listen for God, to direct our path...he will bring the right people into our life, he will bring the right job, he will open all he doors...all we have to do is wait...pray...live our life for him...and he will make things so clear. my life...is HIS life...

ACTS 20 :24

²⁴However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace.

Fire...

"Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle.The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours."~Ayn Rand

that John Piper knows what he is talking about...

“A Christian woman does not put her hope in her husband, or in getting a husband. She does not put her hope in her looks. She puts her hope in the promises of God…She looks away from the troubles and miseries and obstacles of life that seem to make the future bleak, and she focuses her attention on the sovereign power and love of God who rules in heaven and does on earth whatever he pleases. She knows her Bible, and she knows her theology of the sovereignty of God, and she knows his promise that he will be with her and help her strengthen her no matter what. This is the deep, unshakable root of Christian womanhood.”–John Piper

lately...

Man it has been a LONG time since i have blogged! I must get back into it!! Sooooo Fall is a coming :) which makes me happy. Hello scarfs ,sweaters , sweatshirts etc. Don't you just love the colors when they change? That was really one of my favorite things about living in the burg. I miss that. I have been itching to go!!! Maybe i will head up there this fall...football game?sheetz? Macado's? oh man....yes i think i will. hehe...

that is a picture of Peaks of Otter...ohhh i wanna go!!

Well lately...things have been pretty good. I feel a lot of changes going on around me, in me and really it feels great. I dont know what is to come...but it really feels good. I feel at peace with where my life needs to be. I have started to go to a new church. Watersedge Church!It is the BOMB. I love it. I had been going to Hilton Baptist since brith....but it was def. time for a change , and a change for the better. Time to grow and learn more about the people and the world around me. It is amazing how people and a church can change your outlook on life. It is AMAZING!!! I am blessed to be able to go to church every sunday, which great leaders!!! I have also joined a community group ( like a small group). Those people are such blessings in my life...i have been going a little less than a month...AMAZING. I am making new frienships, and just learning about theses people and they are such positive people. I love them!!! :) I also...am now a co-leader for the 6th grade girls @ WEC. I am so excited to be helping and pouring my life into these girls. I pray that lives will be changed this year as we all get to know one another. I feel different, I feel better, I feel that there are good things to come!

On a silly note....i am back to dark hair...hehe. It is crazy how people like it a whole lot better than the light...so dark for the fall. It is great. I love short hair...im going to do a short but long hair thing i think...we will see.

Can you believe that Christmas it right around the corner! * Note to self...you need to start saving money*. But i have started to shop a little here and there for people...im going to be done EARLY! But i have already picked out my gift to myself...wanna see it?

Well i want a necklace from Tiffany's....that is right blue box and all people. There are 3 that I am looking at....we will see...but i am saving the pennies so that i can get one for myself for Christmas!

I always get myself something for Christmas. So I pick out something...this year will be awesome :) hehe...So im going to start shopping now, so it doesn't all hit me at one time, then i am freaking out cuz it is days before Christmas and I haven't done any shopping! Well this is now the longest blog in history....im out.