courage.

what do you think courage means? one definition says that courage is a quality of spirit that enables you to face danger or pain with out showing fear. i have been thinking a lot about this the last week or so. in many parts of my life....i have shown no courage. i have gone off and run from my feelings and my own thoughts. because it is so much easier to run and hide than to sit and face facts, and face the hard things in life. 

what does it take to have courage? how do we get it? it is telling someone how you truly feel about someone? finally standing up and taking responsibility for your own actions and your own feelings?finally talking to someone that you haven't in awhile and be an open book for the first time ever in your life? is it taking a step of faith and just "let go and let God". or is it something that we just have in us that we don't know how to use it.  in fact i think it is all these and more. in my life, i might have taken the easy road in some things which in turn actually make things harder....strange how you learn these things after the fact....ahhhh life. it teaches us. it shows us where we fall short, and shows that their is someone way more powerful and bigger, that has our best interest at heart. He and only he is where our courage comes from. 

'The LORD is my light and salvation- whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life-of whom shall I be afraid?'

~Psalm 27:1

it is so easy just to give up. so easy to give into those thoughts and feelings that make us run and be scared and not be courageous. the reason i am writing about this is that i need to practice what i preach. i am the type of person who is scared of what i am going to say that my words might upset someone, so i keep them to myself.....i am not courageous with communication. i feel that this whole blogging thing. will help me with that. but opening up and talking about why and how i am feeling things....is step two. just getting it out. step one. I'm learning each day. so be courageous...with your feelings, thoughts, emotions, decisions, and life. don't take it for granted. Don't go, stand up to it. Fight the urge to run. Know that someone is their to love us, watch over us, and guide us. We just have to be courageous to listen to Him. 

Today was a good day. I got to sit and talk to a good friend. And talk about life, and love, and just made me think a lot about my actions towards situations in my life lately and that i dont need to be afraid but to be courageous. I thank God for friends who will talk out life with you. Who makes you see things you might not have seen before. Work was long i was glad to get outta there. Today is Rob's birthday. Can I say how crazy it is that so many people have birthdays in February?! We hung out tonight and played with Brendan and watched Idol...im watching LOST now...such a great show... but i wanted to show my new purse i got it today!!....LOVE IT. I have been dying with the purse i have been using lately. I am happy to have to new one. it is purple :) and it rocks. 

' happiness feels a lot like sorrow

let it be, you can't make it come or go

but you are gone not for good but for now

gone for now feels like gone for good ' - happiness - the fray.

what an amazing song....great lyrics too. 

until then...