i can only be me...

Day 12 - A Song From a Band You Hate

2011-07-07T07:23:00.000-07:00

Well this really isn't a band....but a person....and he has a band, does that count?!

ANYTHING by Toby Keith.

UGH this man and his DUMB songs. Really?! I feel bad cuz my dad really likes him. His music...pointless....his lyrics....pointless. I think he just annoys me. I really don't think there is to much more to say....just can't stand him.

Day 11 - A Song From Your Favorite Band

2011-07-07T07:19:00.000-07:00

Well gee I have to pick only one?! haha...

This one goes too...Dave Matthew Band - Crash

This song is BEAUTIFUL....it is like the ulitmate love song. I love hearing it! This song just puts me in the best mood...Dave's wife is one lucky girl to have this song written about her...really. Nothing but love is from this song...and it is one and will always be my favorite.

"You've got your ball you've got your chain
Tied to me tight tie me up again
Who's got their claws in you my friend
Into your heart I'll beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock and sweet you roll
Lost for you I'm so lost for you
You come crash into me..."

Day 10 – A Song That Makes You Fall Asleep

2011-07-01T08:54:00.001-07:00

This one is SO easy….This song is by an artist that is SO under appreciated by radio, itunes, TV etc. My friend Kelly actually introduced me to him…and I am SO thankful for that!

Matt Nathanson!

He is incredible really!!! I love his voice, his lyrics, and his music.

One of His best songs to fall asleep too is Bulletproof Weeks. Man this is SO good. When I have a hard falling asleep I always grab my ipod and put this song on.

“So what happened to bulletproof weeks in your arms
What happened to feelin' cheap radio songs
What happened to thinking that the world was flat
Yea, what happened…”

Day 9 – A Song You Can Dance to

2011-07-01T08:53:00.000-07:00

This one for me is a guilty pleasure really…haha.

The Time (Dirty Bit) – The Black Eyes Peas

This song does nothing but make me wanna dance. There has been many a time in my jeep or Michael’s truck…where I bust out in a dance. This song is just plain fun!

Check it out!

Day 8 – Song You Know All the Words to

2011-07-01T08:45:00.000-07:00

Well that would be a lot of songs now wouldn’t it?! Haha My friends call me the lyric and music queen….cuz I know so much. I think that this a great thing and I wish that they still had the game show “Name That Tune” cuz I would ROCK! So I thought to myself what can I do for this? Well I am going to go with a person who I think is great lyrically. I would like to say Taylor Swift. She writes from her heart, and you can feel this in her lyrics and her songs. I have never related so much to one person and song than I have to her three CDs that she has put out. These CDs and music just get better and better. Her last CD Speak Now…she wrote all the songs and lyrics….um AWESOME. For girls she is very relatable and I feel that she is one person that has been in my head and in my thoughts without even knowing me. She has said in her lyrics what I would kill to tell some people. One of my favorites songs by her is on her latest CD gee this is hard…haha but is Dear John. Suppose to be about John Mayer…well if you knew the story around John…well John….this song is for you. You can hear her emotions in the song…and has had enough…Ugh. I love it…haha.

Long were the nights when my days once revolved around you.
Counting my footsteps praying the floor won't fall through... again.
My mother accused me of losing my mind,but I swore... I was fine.

You paint me a blue sky and go back and turn it to rain.
And I lived in your chess game but you changed the rules every day
Wondering which version of you I might get on the phone... tonight.
Well I stopped picking up and this song is to let you know why.

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone.
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole, way, home.I shoulda known.

Well maybe it's me and my blind optimism to blame.
Or maybe it’s you and your sick need to give love then take it away
And you'll add my name to your long list of traitors who don't, understand.
And I'll look back in regret oh I ignored when they said, "Run as fast as you can"

Dear John,I see it all now that you're gone.
Don't you think i was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole, way, home.

Dear John,I see it all now it was wrong.
Don't you think 19 is too young to be played by your dark twisted games when I loved you so?
I shoulda known.

You are an expert at sorry and keeping lines blurry
and never impressed by me acing your tests.
All the girls that you run dry have tired,
lifeless eyes cause you burned them out.
But I took your matches before fire could catch me so don't look now
I'm shining like fireworks over your sad empty town

Dear John,I see it all now that you're gone.
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home.
I see it all now that you're gone.
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress wrote you a song.
You shoulda known.
You shoulda known.
Don't you think I was too young?
You shoulda known.

Day 7- A Song That Reminds Me of a Certian Event

2011-06-30T07:34:00.000-07:00

It is hard to pick one event...but this one...really important to me :)

My song is .... "I Got You" - Train

Michael and I went and saw them last year. I was really surprised cuz they put on a GREAT show. They are coming with Maroon 5 in August....Linz , Michael and I are going...well I hope too :) But last year at that time...Michael and I were going through a really blah spot in our friendship...it is a long story for another date but...this was the event where I knew I loved Michael. He is my best friend, he lets me be me like no one has ever before. He loves me like no one has ever. I am so blessed to have Him in my life, and I just really couldnt imagine life without him. ( Sara again thank you for introducing us...my life will never ever be the same...you and Jordan get your own table at the wedding :) hehe..) Don't you just wanna puke...haha...sorry but really I hear Train and I think about Michael and just how much I love him.

"Gimme lazy days with nothing better to do than singin oh black water keep on rolling while I wait for you I don't care if it rains, I'll be just fine, I'm leaving the ghosts behind until I Got You I got you you're the sun through my window, warming my skin Oh you,I got you ..."

Day 6 - A Song That Reminds You of Somewhere

2011-06-30T07:23:00.000-07:00

Hold on one Second....let me turn this song on...

and my song would be.... Havana Daydreamin' - by Jimmy Buffett.

This song one puts me in the best mood! Two it reminds me of many many summer vacations at Myrtle Beach, SC. If you know me...one you know I love Jimmy Buffett and two I love Myrtle Beach! This song is so chill! it just reminds me of sitting on the beach and enjoying the sun :) ( um...man I really wanna go now - Michael said that we might be able to go for a weekend sometime soon :)) The song it random...one of those that tells a story, but it is a great summer song. If you wanna be put in a great summer beach mood....check this song out :)

Day 5 - A Song The Reminds You of Someone

2011-06-28T10:47:00.000-07:00

There are so many songs that reminds me of SO many people...It was really hard to come up with a song...but after many song choices for this day, I picked.

The Only Exception- Paramore. and it reminds me of my love Michael <3. hehe.

When listening to this song I always think about Mihael...i'm thinking gee this is how i feel about him...and he tells me and this is how i feel about you :) - it is LOVE folks...hehe... i love him so. When we hear the song we just look at each other and smile :)

"Maybe I know somewhere
deep in my soul that love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways
to make it alone.
Or keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this
keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now I've sworn to myself
that I'm content with loneliness.

Because none of it was ever worth the risk.

Well you are the only exception..."

Day 4 - Song That Makes You Sad

2011-06-28T08:08:00.000-07:00

It isnt like I seek out to listen to sad music, but somedays it is needed. The first song that came to mind was....

Broken - by Lifehouse.
These lyrics are crazy sad...and everytime I hear this song...I just wanna cry. It is a great song full of great emotion. I just love this song and this band.

"Broken"

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on , I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on I'm holdin' on , I'm holdin' on ,
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm holdin' on , I'm holdin' on , I'm holdin' on ,
I'm barely holdin' on to you

Day 3 - A Song That Makes Me Happy :)

2011-06-27T12:53:00.000-07:00

This one was SO easy...really!! Call me old school or whatever...who doesn't love corny love songs?!

My choice for the Song that Makes me Happy....Silly Love Songs - Paul McCartney and Wings....

This song makes me SO happy! My family knows this so when this song comes on the radio ( yes they still play it...)they will call me to swtich the radio station and turn it on. I can't change the song when it comes on my ipod/iphone etc. I just love it...you should go and check it out too...

"You think that people would have had enough of silly love songs, I look around me and I see it isn't so..."

Day 2 - Your Least Favorite Song

2011-06-27T12:14:00.000-07:00

This is hard one. I mean I love music...all kinda, shapes and forms. So when I was trying to find one song that I wasn't to fond of...only one song really came to my head...

Rockstar by Nickleback. ugh.

Yes we all deep down inside want to be rockstars but really I don't wanna hear a song about it. WHO CARES?! :) not this girl if I am a rockstar, it wont go like that.I would be SO much more classy than your "typical" rockstar. Come on who really needs 15 cars?! I can see like maybe 2 cars?! Who wants to live on the top of a hill?! Have you seen gas prices these days?! Who can aford that?! Even if you are a rockstar! I would be the same person I am today....but with an Outlet. One that I could use for the better and promote good things....So maybe I don't wanna be a rockstar now...im stressed out :) haha.

great now the song is in my head..."we all just wanna be big rockstars..."

Day One Song Challenge - Your favorite Song

2011-06-24T09:47:00.000-07:00

Dear Blog, I am so sorry that I have not posted anything in sometime. I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I will do better. Thanks so much. Love, Casey

Now that we have that out of the way, I see that two of my other friends are doing this "song challenge" thing....so why the heck not me? I love music like whoa...so lets do this...

Favorite Song - Um do you know how hard this is?! I like so many songs and listen to so much music I literally had to think about it, walk away from my desk, minimize my screen and come back to it. It isn't like I am getting graded for this...haha.

and the song is....Tripping Billies - Dave Matthews Band. It is the most random song, but i LOVE it! If you know me you know that I love Dave Matthews Band. Great songs, great lyrics, just a great time all around. The song was actually named by Dave Matthews wife ( well back then his girlfriend) he let her hear a recording of the song and she said..." that sounds like people are tripping...". She named my favorite song. I have seen Dave Matthew Band in concert more times than I can count, and they have only played this song once!

"So why would you care
To get out of this place
You and me and all our friends
Such a happy human race .... cuz were tripping billies."

my mind is overflowing with thoughts...

2010-10-18T06:20:00.000-07:00

for those of you who read robshep.com ( which you should read it...) are very use to him doing a "mind dump" well this is mine...

~Life is all about timing...it is God's timing. It isnt' when we want things...it is when we alow God to live through us = making it His time.
~I am so excited that fall is here. I wore my north face jacket and a scarf the other night...i was so happy.
~For those who like sweets (like myself) you should try out the frozen yogurt place in jefferson commons. when i went to california theses places are everywhere...but they are SO good. my friend Laura told me about this one. I went and YUMMY :) the place was great and the service was awesome. ( it is right down from moe's)
~Speaking of California, it was beautiful. Everyone should take the time to make a trip out there. ( ill be posting pics soon...)
~I love being an aunt. If you know me i say this all the time. But when i am not around my nephew...i really miss him. I was away for him for like 6 days...when i came back...i just got so happy. that kid bring such JOY to my life.
~ Grad school anyone? yup im gonna go back...it is now or never right?! im making my way to head that way...prayers welcomed :)
~the Nascar season is almost done....this makes me super sad...but when it comes back guess whos birthday it is?! oh yeah it is me :)
~I got to see Britney ( my old co-leader) last week. i miss her in my life oh so much. im going to see her in lynchburg in like 3 weeks. watch out 434 here i come :)
~My friend sara introduced me to a new band - Gungor....um yes. go check them out as fast as you can :) there song Beautiful Things...i swear i have listened to like 100 times. they are a great Christian band with awesome lyrics.
~At church on sunday we learned about being toxic. ( i really thought they were going to do something with britney spears...cuz it was the first thing i thought of :)) it was a really hard thing for me to swallow. im afraid im being toxic to people around me. family and friends and even my best friends. i felt really sad when leaving church on sunday. God just showed me that he can turn my toxicness into wine :) ( if you were there at church Stu was talking about the mircle of Jesus turning water into wine) i know that God can help me not be toxic to those around me. i hope and pray that he uses me for this and changes me so i can have another chance to show them. hey im not toxic :)
~I love my community group. they prayed over me last night. we spent a lot of time in prayer...it was so nice. we have a great group. great people.
~I have have kinda fallen off the blogging...life has kinda taken a front row seat...
~I miss my best friend.

until next time...

the sun and the moon.

2010-09-27T05:57:00.000-07:00

when i was in college i was introduced to a band named MAE. i fell in love, really it was love at first song. it was weird that all my friends had been listening to them for awhile. but if you know me...you know i love to find new good music. and well i just fell in love with them. i have seen them a handful of times. and each time they just get better and better. the last time i saw them was about a year and a half ago. :). so i follow them on facebook, twitter and all that jazz. so i found out that they were going on tour again...YES. plus with all 5 of the orignal people :) awooohoooo :) i was pumped. but then...i read more and found out this is the last tour :( oh my i am SO sad. it is so bittersweet. this is one of my favorite bands...they have great songs, great lyrics...so there tour starts out on Friday in Richmond, VA at the canal club. and it is ending here in norfolk, va ( at the NorVa). im so sad to see them ending....it is so bittersweet. im happy to have them bless my life with such great music. :) im super sad to see them go :(

"We've got all night just to make it all right
Would you take a walk with me?
I'll give you all I've got, just spare me your time
And I promise you won't want to leave" ~ MAE :)

turn it off

2010-09-24T07:35:00.000-07:00

I scraped my knees while I was praying
And found a demon in my safest haven
Seems like it's getting harder to believe in anything
Than just to get lost in all my selfish thoughts

I wanna know what it'd be like
To find perfection in the pride
To see nothing in the light
But turn it off in all my spite, in all my spite
I'll turn it off

And the worst part is, before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
Then in the free fall I will realize
I'm better off when I hit the bottom

The tragedy it seems unending
I'm watching everyone I looked up to breaking, bending
Taking shortcuts and false solutions
Just to come out the hero

Well I can see behind the curtain
The wheels are cranking turning
It's all wrong the way we're working
Towards a goal, that's nonexistent, it's nonexistent
But we just keep believing

And the worst part is, before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall I will realize
I'm better off when I hit the bottom

I wanna know what it'd be like
To find perfection in my pride
To see nothing in the light
And turn it off in all my spite, in all my spite
I'll turn it off
Just turn it off

Again
Again, again

And the worst part is, before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall I will realize
I'm better off when I hit the bottom

And the worst part is, before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall I will realize
I'm better off when I hit the bottom
~Turn it off - Paramore

looks like love.

2010-09-23T08:44:00.000-07:00

Take another step
Don't give up on me just yet
We could take a chance
We could find a child's romance
At least we'd love until we can't

I won't run
When it looks like love
I won't hide beneath the fear of our past that's come undone
I won't run
When it looks like love
I can't spend another night alone regretting what I've done
So I won't run

A breeze can only be
When she overcomes the heat
Our hearts can only shade
When there's risk that they could break
That's the chance that I will take

So I won't run
When it looks like love
I don't hide beneath the fear of our past that's come undone
I won't run
When it looks like love
I can't spent another night alone regretting what I've done

Raise your hands
It's time to say those words that I left unsaid
I've slept through the sunrise
And I turned away every time it got bright

So I won't run
When it looks like love
needtobreathe - looks like love

why yes i am a redneck...

2010-09-10T11:21:00.000-07:00

this past weekend i got to go to the RICHMOND RACE :) the richmond race you are wondering....im talking about NASCAR here :) hints the title of the blog...people say NASCAR = Redneck ( um...yeah...) there are people there that really are then there are others that really are normal and love the smell of burning tires, the love of speed. like me and my family. this year : my aunt, uncle, cousin, my bro-in-law, my sister and my family from KY came in and we all went. i love going to the races, to see what drivers we can see, look at the merch, and get free samples ( major plus here!!).

pics from the weekend :)
the track :)

me and the sister

the bro in law - he like biffy!!! :)

me and Kasey <3 i love me some kasey :)

saw sam hornish jr.

matt kenseth

oh and i saw KASEY <3

he signed my hat - this is pic of him signing others...but you get the point.

raceday on speed :) i wanted to hard hat....i didnt get one :(

kasey's car :)

fireworks anyone?

who doesn't love a saturday night race?

sorry if it was picture overload...but hey i love me some races. so yes...i am a redneck :)

until next time...

im going where?!

2010-09-07T06:41:00.000-07:00

i love to travel,to see places that i have never seen or just hop in the car and go and see where it takes me. well, never ever did i think i would be hoping in a plane and heading out to the WEST COAST :). its so true...in 30 days i will be hoping on a plane and heading towards California( insert any california song you would like here :)) so pretty right?!

why am i going you ask? well sara lives out there now. she found love and moved on out to california. jordan and her got married 8/14/2010 :) i want to go out there and hang out with them. they are great enough to take me in for a few days show me the sights but i miss her. her craziness and just the silliness that we get into when were together.

i am so pumped. i had some time off and well i was like dude lets just go for it!!! so i am :) i booked my flight already...now just waiting for the days to come so i can have a great vacation! :) get me outta the 757 for awhile and go have some fun on the west coast. i really never ever thought that this would ever happen....but im so blessed that i can go :) woot woot. dont worry tons of pictures will be taken. i hear we are going to DISNEYLAND :) and knotts berry farm and the beach shopping and all that good stuff :) i am so pumped. really...things are going to be busy this fall for me :) which i am so ok with :) happy travels for me.

disneyland :)

knotts berry farm :)

until next time...

earls gonna die.

2010-08-31T18:00:00.000-07:00

there is nothing more in my life than the fact that i HATE and i mean HATE bad weather. like...thunderstorms. heavy rain. lighting. hail. wind. i mean everything...i think that the Lord was really looking out for me when...this thing hit.

i was so lucky that i was at school. i mean i have just heard all the stories and what not...um. SO glad that i wasn't here.

my weird family. LOVES hurricanes. the whole wind the rain. they say " oh casey it will be so much fun..." um...wind, death and destruction....not so much fun. it freaks me out the thought of a BIG hurricane coming this way...i love my house, my bed, my room, my jeep. i think it would be flipping awesome to have all those things intact! just saying...

my examples : hurricane before and after pictures.

we all love nags head right? hmm...

gulfport, MS
at my old church we went down and helped with the clean up of hurricane katrina. it was crazy to see all the destruction even years after....

hurricane andrew.
i really dont think there are words for that.

i am totally not trying to make light of these bad hurricanes....just saying...that i dont like them at all. they make me so nervous that something like this could happen.

i am hoping and praying that Earl doesn't hit us...he just stay out to sea...

so for that...

earl's gonna die.

until next time...

3.3.3

2010-08-30T11:53:00.000-07:00

So for those of you that go to waters edge church...know we do this in community group. well i am speaking tonight in group...so i wanted to share my. 3 people. 3 places. 3 events.

3 people.

1. my dad. he is awesome. i love him. he passed his love of life on to me and my family. for me he passed his love of history to me ( hello he was a middle school teacher for over 30 years and that is what i wanna do :)) his love of music. his fight. he is the BEST. we are so alike so that is why we get a long great.

2. harald. um he is like my 2nd dad. he just really is awesome and i can talk to him about anything and everything and i know he isn't going too judge me ( he might tell me what he thinks...) he is going to love me of me. he gives the best advice and is such a great example in my life. if he wasnt there in my life...who knows where i would have ended up!

3. brendan( my nephew). um he is the coolest kid ever. like really. he has totally changed my life. i know what unconditional love is.well i understand what love is because of him. i would do anything for him. he makes me laugh all the time. i miss him when he isnt around.i love love love him.

3 places.
1. lynchburg, va - or the 434 i like to call it. the home of the lovely liberty university which i went to. what up class of 2006. lynchburg is such a great town. great memories had there. i will always look back at lynchburg with a smile. i love that place. it will always be my second home!

2.ok this is a strech...but Paris, France <3. love this place....i know i have never been but i will get there one day! but that place just makes me so happy when i hear or think about it. one thing my mom does every christmas she always gets me a paris book.i love this place <3.

3.concerts. - me i am always down for a good concert. live show. there is nothing like it and well. you will always find me at shows. i love them for me. summer = concerts. <3.

3 events.
1. graduating collge. again what up class of 2006. college was great. best time of my life really. i want to always look back at college with the great people i met. the fun i had. and really what i learned about myself. it was GREEEEATT!!!

2. becoming an aunt. being an aunt has got to be the coolest thing in the whole world. that kid ( brendan) has totally changed my life. it will never ever be the same again. he makes me laugh and bring such joy to my life. i love him so much. <3 thanks brendan for making me an aunt.

3. um can you say NASCAR!! :) um i love nascar. it has always been on in my house as long as i can remember. i got to go to my first race when i was 18!! it was a gift from my parents ( really coolest gift ever?) and ever since then my love of nascar has just grown. it was a GREAT race and a great thing that i can share with my family.

well that is a little about me. i love my life. glad that i am here and so very blessed.

until next time...

im sick...in the summer?!

2010-08-26T06:36:00.000-07:00

yes it is true...sick. sick as a dog. but yet i have to go to work, and do my daily things...because people except me to hold up my responsibilities (being an adult is no fun...).Remember when you were little and you got to stay home from school with your parents, or for me it was my grandmother. She always gave you what you wanted. You could watch the shows that you wanted to watch, because she wanted to make me feel better...um where is that now?! Being sick turns me into the biggest baby ever. All I wanna do is be held and told me it gonna be better soon. ( im so sappy right?!). Then on the other side I get moody, and cranky,etc., because I am sick, there is no happy medium here. Then when your sick, aren't you suppose to eat like soup, and warm stuff, um it is hot outside who wants that?! Not me...so I am going to do my best with keeping my chin up, and try not to be a baby about it...

until next time...

um...that is really corny...

2010-08-25T18:13:00.000-07:00

For those of you that know me....you know I love music....all kinds, rap, country,rock, pop etc. but even some songs...are WAAAYYY corny. no not the jonas brothers, or miley cyrus ( is it bad that i like them? :) hehe..) but i would like to draw your attention to a GREAT song from a GREAT 80s band...everytime i hear this song i do nothing but chuckle...LOL :) hehe.

REO SPEEDWAGON - Can't fight this feeling.
You may be wondering...um casey what the crap?! this is a great song, i have listened to this song so many times, or jammed in my car so many times...or this is my favorite song...well i hate to break it to you. CORNY....really have you really listened to the song? read the lyrics? well let me tell you my friend....this is cornyville and this song is population 1!

Please read listen and read :) corny corny corny...hehe...

i couldn't even put the video up it was so creepy... really. bring the ship into the shore and throw away the oars forever? really... come on...

this song is just pure corny at its finest :) and i just wanted to share it with you :)

until next time..

why hello blog...its been awhile

2010-08-24T06:33:00.000-07:00

i was talking this weekend about how much i like to blog. get my feelings out etc...and then well i havent in FOREVER. i read people's blogs all day...but you think i could keep up with my own blogg....geeze casey get it together....

randomness...
-im in a new community group ( i do miss my old one...)but we are on week three and i feel so good about it already. it seems that everyone has something to bring to the table and i love that :)
-summer is almost over, i mean really where did it go? i now understand what my parents mean by life going so fast after school.
-summer being over means the summer concert season is coming to an end. i got to see a lot of great shows this summer!
-im gonna go back to school. ODU here I come...I would love to be a teacher. I went to school to do that...so im gonna go do that. ODU here I come :) im hoping spring...praying that it all works out :)
-speaking of school...my friend Britney went off to Liberty University last week. i have talked to her a few times...she is liking it so far :) i miss college is that ok to say?! :)
-church was so good on sunday. like so good. if you missed it or you wanna watch it. go to watersedgechurch.net - click on sundays talk. 8/22/2010. it was great. i was in tears by the end!
-im planning a trip out to cali to see Sara and Jordan ( they just got married <3)i have never been out to the west coast. i mean why dont i do it while i can ya know? i am very excited :) i hope that all works out as well :)
-why do people think it is ok to try and get involved in peoples lives if they don't know them?! um people...if you dont know a person. then step off. ok :)
-i like the new Hanson song. it is a lot of fun. :)here is the video :)

-im going to the richmond race in like 2 weeks! im so pumped. GO KASEY KAHNE :)
-i am so ready for fall. bring on the sweaters,leaves changing etc. and college football:):):):):)...NC State first game is NEXT weekend. i am a happy camper. GO PACK!
-i have to get my jeep inspected sometime this week...i hate doing this more than anything ever!!!!!

i think that is enough randomness for today...until next time. which im hoping will be tomorrow :) hehehe

why i love my church...

2009-12-07T16:33:00.001-08:00

i mean there are like a TON of reasons....but this is one of them :) haha...i love love love love WEC :) we love to have a little fun on Sundays :). Phil and the band...and Rob rappin' :) you should come to WEC and check it out :)

Waters Edge Presents "Get This Party Started" from Waters Edge Church on Vimeo.

thankful :)

2009-11-30T18:32:00.000-08:00

when you are in a funk...it is hard to be thankful...that has been my life for weeks now. i just want to do my own thing. keep the world at arms length...shut the world out...and pull the covers over my head...it is hard to see the light when your in a funk. it is hard to be yourself, when you are in a funk...i went to church on Sunday, and it was the after thanksgiving service...it had a lot of people in the church, talking about what they are thankful for...we all think we have our problems...but when it comes down to it...we all have so much to be thankful for...

- i am thankful for a God who sustains me. who knows what is right for me...even though a lot of times...i don't listen.

-i am thankful for my family. they are the bomb.

-i am thankful for being an aunt. brendan...makes me smile. i love that kid.

-i am thankful for my friends. they are my rock. they guide me when i don't always want to guide myself.

-i am thankful for Waters Edge Church. (WEC). they have changed my life for the better, and for that i am so thankful, i am so happy to call it home.

-i am thankful for my community group. they are awesome to get to know, and to share life with.

-i am thankful for Britney and our student community group. these girls are great, i am glad that i get to share my life and my journey with them.

-i am thankful for my job.

-i am thankful i am thankful for all the little things in life, and make life so much more enjoyable.

-i am thankful for the lessons i have learned in life and still will be learning day to day.

-i am thankful for those people who have made me who i am today, those in the past, the present and the future.

i am praying everyday to get out of this funk...im praying so hard...i know i will find the light...but i am still so thankful for everything in my life.

taYlor SwIfT <3

2009-11-09T18:55:00.000-08:00

this girl cracks me up...

blog...need to put this on a check list...

2009-11-09T18:35:00.000-08:00

long time no blog. i hope all is well with you :) things with me have not stopped...they just seem like they are getting more and more busy...i am more tired. ( this is not good news...). things have been good though. lets see...im a teller again. ( which is actually ok...), my days are just flying by at work. for those of you that don't know, i work at old point national bank...im a full time teller. :). i am happy to have a job but i really really really really really really really miss my girls from kiln creek :( oh man...i feel like my life is SO incomplete without them. so i am hanging with them on friday night! ( im pumped!!!). so i miss my friends. :( i have gotten so much new music in the last few weeks....i just dont know what end is up?! here is the new music...

paper route ( they came with Paramore :) i have seen them twice and they put on a GREAT SHOW ) they are amazing great CD :)

i LOVE taylor swift...this girl knows how to write some songs <3.>

i have always loved train. great songs. great lyrics. go pick it up!!

carrie underwood. dude this CD ROCKS!!!

if you know me...i love new music...i love buying CDs still :)

i have been in a weird mood the last few days...like i wanna be left alone...let me be...let me do what i wanna do. mood. which is never good. i mean i just wanna be alone with my thoughts, which is scary?!?! but i think i need this time to put my finger on all my feelings and my thoughts...then it hit me, i haven't blogged in awhile. im off work on Wednesday ( yeah for bank holidays :)) but i get to go to school with my sister again!! i am SO PUMPED! cuz well i am going to be a teacher...and what fun to go and hang out with kids and at school...things are progressing with that...just have to take a test and apply :) woohoo...so i am praying over that...things are moving and happening and i am super excited to see where life takes me next...right now..i am feeling my bed...gnight all...

pics and other updates...very soon...until next time...

"it's not a dream anymore it's worth fighting for"...

2009-10-23T10:14:00.000-07:00

so this Saturday night...i am going to see PARAMORE :) I love love love love love them...they are awesome. GREAT in concert! GREAT songs! GREAT show! I have already seen them twice...the pics below are of the first time i saw them in Portsmouth! :) such a great time. i am taking my cousin for his 17th b-day!! it is going to be a SOLD OUT show...im so pumped!!! don't worry i will update with new pics very soon.

we got right up front it was awesome!!

this is the lead singer Hayley <3>

it was such a great show!! :)

they put on such a great show, a lot of engery and a ton of jumping and singing! ahhh im so pumped for tomorrow night :)

updates...

2009-10-23T09:32:00.000-07:00

so i had another blog all typed up...and blogger...messed it up..agh! so i'll try again...

happy friday everyone! :) this past week has been SO crazy and busy i don't think i could even fit anything else into it...really...

well the job. if you read my last blog....it was about me not having a job here with Tom anymore ( sad I know :( ). of course anyone tells you that you don't have a job all you want to do is panic...really. i tried my best to put my best foot forward but i totally wanted to FREAK OUT! well Tuesday, I had a meeting with Tom and Katie ( the head of HR). We had a sit down talk just about what was going to take place. here are the facts. i would have a month to find something here at the bank. but the sad thing is that there are really only 2 spots open at this moment. so after the meeting i went and talked to Rachel ( the other lady in HR) and she was great! She was like " we are going to take care of you ", " don't panic we will find something for you ". So she called a branch and set something up for me to meet them the very next morning! The only thing that was worried was that they were going to make a call that very next day...they had already gone through meeting people and interviewing. i was like CRAP! so the next morning i went and had my interview, i thought that it went well...i just didn't want to get my hopes up because i didnt know what was going to happen it might have been to late. so she told me we will tell you today which way we are going...i was like man this is happening all so fast...so the rest of the day...i was SO jumpy. i just wanted to know. well i am very happy to say that...I GOT THE JOB!!! :):):):). I will now be ( well on Nov 2nd) a Full Time Teller at the West Mercury Branch!!!!! I am just so happy to have a job!!! I really wanted to stay here at Old Point. I love it here...I mean I have been here for 3 years...I mean I know that one day in the very near future I am going to be a teacher. That is my passion and I know that I want to do that! Me being at the bank...it is just for now. I am just SO blessed!!! I am so thankful that the Lord is SO very faithful to me!! I am so blessed by a God who blesses me!! I can not thank Him enough for all he gives me in my life. I am very sad at the same time excited. I am so going to miss working here at the Kiln Creek branch. I love it here. I love these people like they are my family...it will be very weird not to see them everyday!!!! I am ready for this new challenge in life. I am ready to be a teller again...and just so blessed to still have a job!

" And the same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus"

~Philippians 4:19 (NLT)

if it isn't something...it is always something else...

2009-10-19T10:36:00.000-07:00

well i guess i should let you guys in on my life...my job here @ Old Point...well is up in the air...AKA...someday soon i won't have a job here...maybe?!?! friday afternoon tom my boss ( who is just awesome) had a little sit down talk about my future here with him. well looks like there isn't going to be a future with him atleast. he told me that i needed to start to look for other jobs. not really what you wanna here on a Friday afternoon huh?!? but well they need a licensed sales assistant ( which is am not). i did take the test to try and get my license...but failed. i mean going in on something that you have NO idea about cold turkey, and are expected to pass this really hard test....yeah not for me. i tried my best and did not pass. so what does this mean for me now?! well good news, they aren't kicking me out the door. i still have my job with tom for now ( tomorrow i will have even more information on the whole get up...i get to have a meeting with HR :) - oh joy...) so buisness as usual. they do want to keep me around ( aka - keep me at the bank) so they are going to work with me and try and get me something in the bank...only problem is...there isn't much avaliable...that is what scares me. but i mean im hoping to have a job still with the bank, which means that im going back to being a teller again. which i am totally ok with. i will just have to be retrained on things...which will be strange to be a teller again but i welcome it with open arms...i will be blessed to have any job. what i hope takes place is that they have room somewhere here at the bank for me. i have been at the bank now for 3 years...and well i know people here, and all that jazz. starting a new job, i mean we all know how that is?!?! stressful...i want to stay here at the bank until i can do what i need to do to become a teacher!! it is true...i want to be a teacher...i got off the path of doing that, but now i have found my way back...not everyone gets it right the first time right?! i have look into taking test, and now are getting ready for them...so this is all a lot of stuff. but the thing is, that this is my job...the way of life, what i wake up every morning to do. so well i kinda need a job, benefits you know?! so...if it isn't something...it is always something else...so i ask that you keep my job in your prayers...it is a bit awkward here at work...but i am dealing :) i am hoping and praying for all this to work out in the best way if i do stay here at old point or if i do head somewhere else...all i can do is leave it up to God to lead me in the right direction...

And let the peace that comes from Christ rule in your hearts. For as memebers of one body you are called to live in peace. And always be thankful.
~ Colossians 3:15 (NLT)

halfway home...

2009-10-15T11:29:00.000-07:00

so i was playing on you tube today...and i was looking at jason mraz stuff. he has such great lyrics and great songs!! i was looking around hoping that i could find this song...and i did :) it is prob. my 2nd favorite jason mraz song....here it is...wow he looks really young huh?! enjoy!

dear blogger...

2009-10-14T11:50:00.000-07:00

so it took me like FOREVER to do the last post...and it cut out things...RANDOM! i wanted to tell you linz and rob got a new VAN. it is wolfpack red!! it is awesome. Linz is offcially a soccer mom :) i told her i was going to put a soccer sticker on the van...she gave me a dirty look...hmm...maybe she didn't like it?!?! Hehehehe.... :)

dear blogger,

next time i want to make a post, please be nice and let me post it. with all of my information. thanks.

love,
your blogging friend....Casey <3

you can't be to careful anymore...

2009-10-14T10:15:00.000-07:00

the title of my blog...is a lyric from Paramore song Careful. Can I tell you I have not stopped listening to that CD since I got it like...3 weeks ago?! Oh MAN. I love love love love love the CD!!! I think my favorite song on the CD would have to be...the only exception...ohhh let me add so you can hear it :)

i dunno the CD is amazing...i mean really there isn't a bad song on the CD. but for me...i swear when i heard it i was like dang...i feel the same way!

" Maybe I know , somewhere
Deep in my soul

That love never lasts

And we've got to find other ways

To make it alone

Or keep a straight face

I've always lived like this

Keeping a comfortable, distance

And up until now

I had sworn to myself that I'm content

with loneliness

Cuz none of it was worth the risk, well

You are the only exception" <3

amazing lyrics if i do say so myself...kudos to them for a great song.

haha well i had no idea where this blog was going to go...but life these last week or so has been crazy eventful and just plain fun. well let's start on the job...well i want to be a teacher, i went to school with my sister on Monday ( we had off at the bank :)) and i loved every minute of it!!!it fit like a glove, and i totally should have just stayed with teaching when i had the chance ( yes we all make the wrong choices sometimes :)) the kids were great. i watched, helped with stuff. i got to go to a history class! it was great. i miss it so. i am very excited to see what is to come!! i can't wait to be a teacher! i get to do two of my passion: hanging with teenagers and teach them history :) woohoo!! i went to the VLM( virginia living museum) this weekend with Rob, Linz and B. I need to upload my pics!! You need to see the cuteness of my nephew ! i love that kid <3

I am also reading a great book...

very good book. i am learning so much from it...it is amazing! i love learning about myself!! :) these are things that are such common things that you need in your relationship for a good and healthy relationship...they are so simple...it is crazy...you should pick it up :) i had someone give me mine :) but so far great read!! :)

Church has been AMAZING...this past Sunday, not a dry eye in the whole place...we are going "deep" and it is just simple things here...last night in community group we were talking about " stuipd obdience"... like as if you mom tells you what to do...and you give her lip back...just doing it..." Stuipd Obdience" it is the simple things in life what God tells us to do...and we don't do...we kick and we scream...to do everything but what God says. we need to just shut up and do it. one of my favorie verses we went over last night...

" Do not be anious about anything, but in everything , by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God"

~ Philippians 4:6

I try and do my best with not worrying and freaking out, but sometimes it isn't as easy. i needed that yesterday BIG time. that God has it under control...so why am i freaking out about this and that... God is incontrol. He is BIG ENOUGH to take on my problems, my worries, and my freak outs. i need to have "stupid obdience" towards God. im just learning so much lately...it is like information overload...i love it. i love that i feel for once in a really long time...my life is on the right track! and it feels SO good :) My student community group is GREAT!!! i love these girls...they are so cute. they are great. i love every minute of hanging with them. it is never a dull moment!!!

Last but not least...SPORTS...( the sports God's were not in my favor this weekend :( )

Kasey Kahne...this picture explains it all...

12 laps to go he was running TOP TEN...and got wrecked...really?!?!?! Ohhh i was pissed!!! Ugh...they are in Charlotte this weekend <3 ( i'll get there one day...) so im hoping for a win!!! cuz we need it!!

TECH WON :)

NC STATE LOST :( ( and lost to DUKE :( --man that one stings)

RAVENS LOST :(

STEELERS WON :(

longest blog in time...i know...it just flows... ok im out :)

my weekly sports update...

2009-10-07T07:36:00.000-07:00

well the teams that i like :) hehe...

well first and formost...is NASCAR ( yes people i like NASCAR...go ahead and laugh...) but i have followed it for YEARs....or as long as i can remember....so i like Kasey Kahne ( if you didnt know that already :)) this weekend he finished 6th!!! :) and moved up one spot in the chase he is no longer 12th but 11th. WOOHOO....

on to college football...

TECH WON :)

NC STATE LOST :(

LIBERTY ( go flames!!) WON :)

now NFL...

RAVENS LOST :(

and ugh...the STEELERS WON :( ( i do not like them...and they played against the chargers which phillip rivers went and was the QB @ NC State....Phillip Rivers *clap clap clap clap clap* <---it is a family thing :))

that is the sports for the week...until next time...

some good music...

2009-10-07T07:12:00.000-07:00

so i listen to Pandora on my computer here at work a lot. the radio is good and all but im over hearing "bleeding love" by leona lewis...they play it like 5 times...ugh. haha...( oh and sorry if you like that song...im just not a fan :)). so for those of you that do not know you can set up your own radio stations! i have about 6 or 7 radio stations set up...so they play a mix of that kind of music that you like. lets see...i have. coldplay station, paramore station, mae station, dave matthews station, the fray ( which i have been listening to a lot lately...). on the fray station thay play like john mayer, jack johnson, jason mraz, matt nathanson etc. they also play lifehouse...which i love love love by the way :) one of my favorite albums is no name face. amazing songs and amazing lyrics.( if you do not have this CD...please pick it up...or contact me and i will make you a copy :)) so im just sitting here doing my work and the song breathing comes on...i LOVE this song...it is great...so i wanted to share :) please enjoy this...listen to the lyrics...they are AMAZING :)

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

2009-10-05T08:01:00.000-07:00

i know what you are thinking...

which i love by the way...haha...i think it might be time to pull out the seasons again...side note. my mom went to NYC like 2 weeks ago and she got me a central perk tote bag :)

ahhh friends...how i love you.

But that is not what my blog is about...i just want to say that friends are amazing! i mean you knew that right?! :) hehe. but lately...i am just so blessed with amazing friends who have stuck by my side, with life and it's many turns, it's hills and it's valleys. i am glad that i have people in my life to help me out, to look out for me, or just call for advice. i am glad that i can go to them and talk to them about my problems, or ask for help or whatever i need. they are the most important thing in life ( yes besides your family...which i love love love my family :)). i just can't say thank you enough to them. some of them i have lost touch with, some of them we are back into each other lives. i just want to say that i am so thankful to all of you who have put something into my life. you have made me the person that i am today, and for that i am eternally greatful.

why i love Dave Matthews Band <3.

2009-10-02T09:57:00.001-07:00

one of the best "love songs" i have heard in awhile...

Tuesday...

2009-09-29T08:20:00.000-07:00

today has been a great day so far....

7-11 for their hot chocolate. :)

the new Paramore CD came out today :) SOOO good...

i am going to lunch with peeps from work that i haven't seen in awhile. it will be nice to catch up!

tonight is TNL ( tuesday night life) @ WEC ( waters edge church) it will be awesome :)

also...a little sports update...

Kasey Kahne finished 8th :) woohoo...he is still in last place in the chase...but im still happy he is even in it...we will get them...9 races to go...then it is all over :(

TECH WON :)

N.C. STATE WON :)

RAVENS WON :)

and again....the steelers LOST :)

until next time...

R.E.S.P.E.C.T. find out what it means to me...

2009-09-28T18:48:00.001-07:00

before you start to read this....i am giving a disclaimer...these are just my thoughts and my ideas here...i am not trying to put anyone or anything down...just events that have happened over this past weekend...my feelings need to get out...

SO...Friday...i went out with my friend Sam, she works with me. we went out to celebrate Jessica's 21st! we had dinner at cheeseburger in paradise. we ate talked hung out. it was fun. then we went to CJ's the Karaoke bar at the bowling alley. one of my good friends works there, and wanted us to stop by and well it is just fun to watch people sing. sing a long and have a good ole time. so sam and i sat and talked laughed and hung out. it was nice. since we can't always act silly at work. she actually saw some people she knew so we were all talking. she had to leave since she had to work the next day...but DANG i wish she would have stayed. so i was sitting there talking to diana ( my friend who works at the bar) and friends. this guy approaches me. sits down and starts talking to me. i was like well ok....so he was asking what to do around here blah blah blah...well i was like trying to get him to pick up the point that well...i wasn't interested...so i turned and started to talk to my other friend who was there too...we were just laughing and having a good ole time. then he tires and start to talk to me again...i didn't want to be mean so i listen to what he had to say...he stopped talking to i turned to my friend to talk to him again...( i know you are wondering why are you telling me this...here it is...) the guy who walked up to me ( i didn't even catch his name...) starts to tell my friend that and i quote...." where can i go and get some hot girl....hotter than her ( talking about me)...and someone easy?" i know what you are thinking..." did he really just say that???"....oh yes he did...then he goes on and on about "how my friend can do so much better than me"..."why would he waste his time on me"...that "he knows my friend has had better than me"...blah blah blah...might i say that i have NEVER been so disrespected by a STRANGER!!!! so at this point...i am thinking to myself "whoa is he really saying this??"

1. he doesn't even know me...and that is straight disrespect.

2. well i still have my V-card. and i intend to hold on to that until i am married and give that gift to my husband. it is only for my husband, not some guy who comes up and tries to give me a line.

3. im not that girl...im not "easy"...i don't even put off that i am.

4. was he mad that i wasn't giving him what he wanted?..my bad but im not that girl, guys you can't always get what you want.

5. he is making guys look really bad at this point. who really says that??

6.respect, respect, respect, respect

7. i am sorry that he lives like this and thinks that it is ok to talk to girls like this, didn't his mother teach him better???.( yes these are all the thoughts that are going through my mind at the point he is saying all this)

So i tell him that he just needs to leave that no one really cares what he is saying...at this point?...i could not believe this...i was so upset...i mean really WOW who really says that?? So i had to get out of there...i walked out!! just to cool off...really who says that?? if you know me, i am SO big on RESPECT...you RESPECT me and i will RESPECT you... it is really that easy people ( try it on for size...i bet you like what you get...) this guy we will call him Mr. Disrespect. ( AKA Mr. D for short)...did he know me? did he know what i stand for? did he know what i believe?... so after i cooled down...i come back into the bar to see my honor being defended. my other friend was like..." you don't know her..", " you don't disrespect a girl like that", " you made her feel uncomfortable...that is just wrong"...blah blah blah ( these are good blah blah blah's )...so everyone had it out...even diana had to put people in their place...i felt like a little kid who totally just got beat up and i didn't even know what to say...so after a little while...i went home...totally had enough for the evening and wanted to leave...so i just am mulling over this when i was driving home, laying in bed, waking up the next morning, the next day so on and so forth...i feel so sad, mad and pukey ( is that a word...) all at the same time...

Soap Box Time...i feel so sad that people actually live their lives like this. don't they know that they were made for something so much bigger and better!! i feel so sad that people my age or even younger have no self respect anymore. they will just go out and get the next best thing. they don't care who is hooking up with who. don't just settle for someone who is going to disrespect you. i feel that i am like i am trying doing my best with my life, making the best decisions possible ( and not i am NOT perfect and yes i have messed up and yes made the wrong decisions) i am trying and be a Light in this dark little world we live in. People call me weird, people but me down, but these are my morals and my beliefs and you will be shocked but their are still people out there who care about morals etc. SO make fun of me do whatever...but sometimes it is SO hard to not let people and peoples words get in the way. ( like they did on Friday night)

Also to Mr. D whoever you are...and to guys reading this...1. puting a girl down just wrong. 2. it is all about respect. 3. girls don't like to be looked at like a piece of meat. girls want to be loved, RESPECTED, we like romance etc. 4. there are actually girls out there who respect themselves. 5. when a girl has morals, and beliefs, listen to them, respect them, because they mean something to us.

I say all of this...it is JUST A THOUGHT life is all about respect. respecting each other in relationships, at your job, with your family...guys...respect girls. you will be amazed what you will get in turn. sometimes you should just shut your mouth instead of puting some random chick down...who you have NO idea about. and what she stands for. girls...respect yourself! you mean something to someone. either to you mom or your dad, your boyfriend. your friends. who ever it is in your life. you have meaning and you are not a piece of meat. you deserve to be respected by anyone or anything in your life. ( i am not saying that guys don't deserve respect...cuz we all do:))

ok really i feel like this is a bunch of blah blah... and is really prob really hard to follow but don't people want to be RESPECTED?? It is a TWO way street. so start respecting those around you...don't just be mean to be mean...

RESPECT this is what it means to me...

encouragement...

2009-09-24T07:16:00.000-07:00

so yesterday was a pretty ugh day at the ole work place. i felt like everything i did was wrong. i honestly felt like i was on the first day at the job. i was really discouraged. i wanted to hide under the desk praying and praying that 5 would get here fast. it is so hard sometimes when you are really frustrated to get out of the attitude of blah...so i went to the bathroom and got upset about it but then i stopped and i said a prayer to calm my heart, to be focused but to just endure...and it is amazing how things can turn around...we are not perfect people! so i am going to make mistakes from time to time...but it is so awesome to know that i have someone to fall back on when life gets a little tough from time to time...My God supplies all my needs....WHAT A HUGE BLESSING...i am blessed to have people in my life to remind me of that!

then later in the evening...we had group! Which was great....they talk about everything under the sun...but they want to learn and they want to be there!!! We talked about being the Light in the Dark world...(Britney did awesome :) teaching...) "God is light ; in him there is no darkness at all" - 1 John 1:5...then we turned and started talking about what examples we can be in the lives of those who are around us. Encouraging those who need to stay on the path of the Light...it was awesome to hear the girls talk about friends they want to help to encourage, to be the Light in this dark world....they are such a blessing to me :) I love that people encourage me...then I get encouraged to turn around and encourage them! Just a ton of encouragement going on here people...it is great. Be an encouragement to those around you...and be blessed by friends, family, co-workers...be a Light in this dark world....

Suspension.

2009-09-22T09:18:00.000-07:00

this will always be my FAVORITE MAE song....take a listen...for those of you who have never heard them!!! It is from their Cd The Everglow...

weekend...

2009-09-22T08:06:00.000-07:00

what is going on? i hope this blog finds you well. things for me have been good. i spent this past weekend with my family. mom was gone so i hung out with dad and the family :). we went out to eat on friday night to

it was ok...i didnt think it was worth all the hype...but i mean i would go again...but it was ok. ( the food was good though...). Saturday i started to house/pet sit...so i went to play with the dog and kitties :) then went to hang out with dad we went to Best Buy....i got the All Time Low CD...very good...i like it! We then went out to eat at Beef O' Bradys! So SO SO So good...it was nice to hang out with the family and talk sports and all of the above...( the pic is the one in Newport News...)

Well guess what time of year is getting here quick??? HALLOWEEN!! Well not that I am going to get dressed up and go out...well maybe...one day my nephew is going to be Harry Potter and I will go as his Hermione :) or i guess maybe Jenny...( well i won't spoill it for those who haven't read the book...ok where was i going...yes HALLOWEEN!! so my nephew only the coolest kid on this planet...is going to be a TURTLE :) ( which is so cute when he says it...oh man...melts your heart <3)

this isn't the one he is going to use...but you get the idea right??? :) but he is going to looks SO cute. we went costume hunting for him. they had to wait for the next shipment to come so he will get it when it comes...don't you worry...pic will come. last year he was a lion. well the cutest lion i have ever seen :) hehe. We went to wal-mart after that too...and i did something that i had never done before!! I LEFT MY BAG AT WAL-MART?? I felt like a total dork walking back into wal-mart to get my bag...i was SO mad...but oh well...that will never happen again. so people take the time to make sure that you got all your bags. i learned my lesson!!

Sunday was church and sports!!!! Church first...Rob spoke this Sunday...on INTEGRITY! Man so many people need to hear it. ( watersedgechurch.net - sundays talk) you should take a listen. The thing that I loved was the fact that Rob gave real life examples and things that he even struggles with!! It all was really something that we can all relate too. It doesn't have to be BIG things on intergrity...it can be the small things. Integrity is doing the right thing even when it is hard. For some people it is really hard to do the right thing...and for some it is like second nature, they don't even think about it they just do it. It can be telling a little lie, or watching something that you don't need to be watching, making the right choices. We all need to keep our Integrity in check! Be who we are in front of people and behind closed doors. Be an example of Christ everywhere...you will be blessed by the fact that you sitck to your integrity at all times. I think that we should all take the time to look at our integrity...is it where it needs to be? do you even care? care enough to change?

Now Sports...The first race to the chase...and Kasey had a blown engine!!! Ahh...i was sad...but it is ok he will get them next week!!

In other sports news of the weekend....haha. NC. State WON :) Tech WON :) Baltimore RAVENS WON:) and the best...the Steelers LOST :) HAHAHA. ( sorry peeps not a fan...)

Well that is me in a nut shell...haha. I know I am so random...but this is my life...

OH one more thing....

(m)orning by Mae the CD came out today :) i have heard all the songs already...but im gonna go pick up the cd :) such good stuff!!

alright im out...enough of my rambling :)

fireflies...

2009-09-16T19:50:00.000-07:00

oh also in love with the song fireflies by owl city....i could listen to that song all day long...it makes me happy....heres the song....not the video...the video is pretty awesome as well...

my life be like (x2)

2009-09-16T08:29:00.000-07:00

my life be like crazy this weekend/week!!! where has the time gone...that is why i haven't been able to blog as much...

this past Sunday, was a great one at WEC...we are in the middle of the series 'my life'. this week we were talking about 'my path' ...ohhh a good one! the decisions that we make lead to the path that we take ( duh?). haha. but no really...we are humans and we make so many mistakes in life. weither it is financially, or spiritual, or in relationships, at your job or whatever. but how do you get on the right path??? don't you want to have God in control of it all?! but how do we get there what do we do? goals....you have things you want to accomplish right? like for me. i have the desire to be a teacher. well for awhile it has been hidden but now i have a strong want to be a teacher. soooo how do i get there? i get people who are there and follow in their footsteps. i.e my sister. i mean i know i have to get my tests taken and all that jazz but follow a GOOD example and do what they do!! relationships are always a hard one. i mean we all think we know...but yet only few get it right. but don't you want God in your relationship? i have been in relationships where there was God and others that were not. he should be #1!!!!! it only makes sense and only works when you and your bf/gf are seeking after God...will things fall into place. So how do we get there? PRAY ABOUT IT....then follow those who have the relationship you want...ask questions...ask for help...do all you can to get what you want out of a relationship! Financially? oh money...what a stress right?! Man I want God to be in control of that!! since im not that good at it...well im trying to get a lot better with it. BUDGET BUDGET BUDGET! :) but I need prayer over it! I need to be more responsible...things are paid off...but saving and saving and did i mention saving? So how do we get better at that and make the right decision? ASK FOR HELP....maybe hand over credit cards. do some research? I think the big thing here is the fact that you just have to take the step in the right direction. Make the right call instead of hating yourself later...the principle is very easy...make right choices. get to where you want in life. down the path...to your destination to hit your goal. :) so surround yourself with good and positive people. and do the best that you can for living for the Lord and he will bless you in the end....be wise...like Solomon!!!

this week has been crazy yet awesome all at the same time...had our first student community group tonight!!! we had 12 girls!!! they are so cute and i am excited to see where things will go. they love to talk about anything and everyone....oh cute 6th grade girls :) hehe...

oh i went to the Richmond Race with my dad and family!! it was AWESOME....we got pit passes and saw a ton of drivers and just everything and everyone it was GREAT!!!! i loved it. i did see Kasey <3>

enough for now...im off to bed...hopefully...my eyes are heavy....Zzzzz...

teenagers..

2009-09-10T06:33:00.001-07:00

are the BOMB :) haha. so many people are so scared of teenagers like they are going to like beat you up or something. Teenagers are AMAZING. I really feel that God has put a passion in my heart for teenagers! Last night my eyes were opened to the fact that there are teenagers who want to step out and be and example to their peers and really step out for God and be the ONE who can make a different and be blessed by Him! For those of you that do not know I am helping serve on the student leadership at WEC ( waters edge church...if you didnt know :)) what a blessing it has been even in just a short time. I am a co-leader for the 6th grade girls. They are just to cute and way to funny! I wonder if I was like that when I was in 6th grade!?! We have our first student community group next wednesday! I mean I am nervous and excited all at the same time! I am just so excited and blessed that I am apart of something that is SO much bigger than I am. In my life all I want to do is help and serve, I feel so at peace helping others. It def is weird going into a group that people are already tight and have been for awhile, it will take some time getting use to. All I can say is that the leadership and the leaders have been nothing but loving and helpful, and have totally opened their arms to me. I really feel blessed to be apart of this. I pray that I am the example in thier lives to be the ONE to step out, even if they are new to this whole " God thing ". Being a leader means a lot of things, but it also helps you put things in perspective of what you need to do in your life. How can you lead if you know you aren't living for Him, but telling your students to live for Him?! I feel like ever since I have been attending WEC, that the purpose of life has more meaning, it is getting me back on the right path with my life. I am so blessed to have these people in my life...I know that this is a total God thing. They have come into my life at a time where I do need peope like them. I pray over the year that I will be with these girls. I pray that there lives will be changed. I pray that I can be the example that they need in their life. That friendships will be formed, trust will grow, and we are open to what God has instore for us!
"Teach me to do your will for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground"

~Psalm 143:10

Also update on the fast....been doing really good with it! No fast food this week! I mean yes it has been only 3 days...but I am feeling at peace with my choice. It is more packing of lunch, packing sandwiches and stuff. I am just feeling so good about life. I mean things can be messed up but yet so put into place. Love it!!!

Don't spend...SAVE!!

2009-09-08T06:55:00.000-07:00

So this is a random post but my finances lately have totally been stressing me out!!! I know money stresses alot of people out but lately I feel like all I have been doing is just trying to catch up on this and that. Then when I do catch up, something happens and you are back at where you started. So this past weekend I sat down and looked at where my money really has been going I have been praying about it and trying to do the right thing with my money, because it is just me and my little paychecks. So I have decided that I spend alot of my extra money on FOOD! (aka....fast food...) which i really don't need anyway but FOOD!!! I mean yes it is needed to live and have strength but I think that I need to take a break from fast food. Save that money that I spend on fast food and use it for bills, or paying off my studet loans or just SAVE MONEY!!! I need to do a lot better with my spending, if I would like to do what I want in life I need to be responsible with my money.I am going to take a 40 day fast from fast food! It helps out with my pocket ( saving cash), and my girlish figure( which that is just a plus)- killing two birds with one stone? :). My challenge to myself save money not spending it on silly things like fast food everyday, which means more packing of food, or going home instead of hitting, taco bell, McDonalds, wendys, etc. I am going to journal this and keep you updated on this. I do ask for your prayers because I do know that this will be a lot harder than it seems!! * I pray that this will bring good change...over my finances* Don't spend...SAVE.

:)

2009-09-07T14:34:00.000-07:00

one of my favorite bands....playing one of my favorite songs...i was playing on you tube today and i found it :)

paramore is covering here you me - by jimmy eat world.

my life be like...

2009-09-07T09:42:00.000-07:00

so at church yesterday we started a new series called "my life". which i really didn't know what to expect...but i was excited to hear it. man.....i so needed to hear that yesterday. as humans we all have these plans we want to do to accomplish by this time or that time. we need to do this. we have to do that. but yet when we don't get there we get upset, we get mad, we get bitter, we get lost, we get off on the road and get lost. For me...that has been me for the past two years or so. i thought life was going this way...yet it went totally the other way. i had to learn to adapt to what was going on around me, and just try and figure things out, which way to i go? up, down, right, left? i was so scared to make a wrong choice, go the wrong way. have you ever felt like you were living life going the wrong way on a one way street? yes! that is me...where am i? how did i get here? why did i get here? yet it is my life and my life is not my own. My life is HIS. HIS timing. we as Christians are so wanting to do this now, when it is good for us, we don't look at our life as HIS life...we get so caught up in, "my life should have already been this", or" i should have already done this". Like myself we get caught up in our own detours....we get down in the dumps...why? why? why? why?....that is all we want to know...we want to know all the answers...but that is what i love about MY GOD...he teaches us great things while we are wanting to find out all the answers. we will one day know why, we will one day understand all the answers. all we have to do is sit back and listen for God, to direct our path...he will bring the right people into our life, he will bring the right job, he will open all he doors...all we have to do is wait...pray...live our life for him...and he will make things so clear. my life...is HIS life...

ACTS 20 :24

²⁴However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace.

Fire...

2009-09-04T09:54:00.000-07:00

"Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle.The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours."~Ayn Rand

that John Piper knows what he is talking about...

2009-09-03T09:03:00.000-07:00

“A Christian woman does not put her hope in her husband, or in getting a husband. She does not put her hope in her looks. She puts her hope in the promises of God…She looks away from the troubles and miseries and obstacles of life that seem to make the future bleak, and she focuses her attention on the sovereign power and love of God who rules in heaven and does on earth whatever he pleases. She knows her Bible, and she knows her theology of the sovereignty of God, and she knows his promise that he will be with her and help her strengthen her no matter what. This is the deep, unshakable root of Christian womanhood.”–John Piper

lately...

2009-09-02T07:30:00.000-07:00

Man it has been a LONG time since i have blogged! I must get back into it!! Sooooo Fall is a coming :) which makes me happy. Hello scarfs ,sweaters , sweatshirts etc. Don't you just love the colors when they change? That was really one of my favorite things about living in the burg. I miss that. I have been itching to go!!! Maybe i will head up there this fall...football game?sheetz? Macado's? oh man....yes i think i will. hehe...

that is a picture of Peaks of Otter...ohhh i wanna go!!

Well lately...things have been pretty good. I feel a lot of changes going on around me, in me and really it feels great. I dont know what is to come...but it really feels good. I feel at peace with where my life needs to be. I have started to go to a new church. Watersedge Church!It is the BOMB. I love it. I had been going to Hilton Baptist since brith....but it was def. time for a change , and a change for the better. Time to grow and learn more about the people and the world around me. It is amazing how people and a church can change your outlook on life. It is AMAZING!!! I am blessed to be able to go to church every sunday, which great leaders!!! I have also joined a community group ( like a small group). Those people are such blessings in my life...i have been going a little less than a month...AMAZING. I am making new frienships, and just learning about theses people and they are such positive people. I love them!!! :) I also...am now a co-leader for the 6th grade girls @ WEC. I am so excited to be helping and pouring my life into these girls. I pray that lives will be changed this year as we all get to know one another. I feel different, I feel better, I feel that there are good things to come!

On a silly note....i am back to dark hair...hehe. It is crazy how people like it a whole lot better than the light...so dark for the fall. It is great. I love short hair...im going to do a short but long hair thing i think...we will see.

Can you believe that Christmas it right around the corner! * Note to self...you need to start saving money*. But i have started to shop a little here and there for people...im going to be done EARLY! But i have already picked out my gift to myself...wanna see it?

Well i want a necklace from Tiffany's....that is right blue box and all people. There are 3 that I am looking at....we will see...but i am saving the pennies so that i can get one for myself for Christmas!

I always get myself something for Christmas. So I pick out something...this year will be awesome :) hehe...So im going to start shopping now, so it doesn't all hit me at one time, then i am freaking out cuz it is days before Christmas and I haven't done any shopping! Well this is now the longest blog in history....im out.

everlasting...

2009-07-19T18:49:00.000-07:00

A thousand times I've failed

Still your mercy remains

And If I stumble again

I'm caught in our grace

Everlasting, Your light will shine

When all else fails

Neverending, your glory goes

Beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul

I give You control

Consume me from the inside out Lord

Let justice and praise

Become my embrace

To love You from the inside out

Everlasting, Your light will shine

When all else fails

Neverending, Your glory goes

Beyond all fame

And the cry of my heart

Is to bring You praise

From the inside out

Lord my soul cries out

Your will above all else

My purpose remains

The art of losing myself

In bringing You praise

let that be enough...

2009-07-09T11:34:00.000-07:00

I wish I had what I needed

To be on my own'

Cause I feel so defeated

And I'm feeling alone

And it all seems so helpless

And I have no plans

I'm a plane in the sunset

With nowhere to land

And all I see

It could never make me happy

And all my sand castles

Spend their time collapsing

Let me know that You hear me

Let me know Your touch

Let me know that You love me

And let that be enough

Switchfoot ~ Let that Be Enough.

Phil 4:19 And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.

things to remember....

2009-05-29T08:15:00.000-07:00

Advice to live by:

(Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland, Ohio.) "To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

cause I'm on the brink of something beautiful

2009-04-30T12:52:00.000-07:00

so...i have been on a mae kick this week...( sara please dont stop reading since i know how much you loooooove them ;) HAHA). but anyways really all i have listened too this week is mae. it is like i have rediscovered them or something. but good news they are coming to the nova @ the end of may i am so there! but i wanna talk about how a song can take on new meaning. mae reminds me of college...where i was first introduced to them. it was awesome. i have seen them a couple of times with friends from college so they are just wraped up in college memories. one of my memories of the song " the sun and moon" (off the everglow CD.) was at my friends Kristin and Micah's wedding! it was one of the songs in their wedding. how classy are my friends to have mae song in their wedding :) but if you knew them they wouldn't have it any other way. At the same time that the wedding was happening, i was having a great struggle in my life so this song "the sun and the moon", i just put that song with a bad memory,i couldn't listen to it at all.it was one of those sad songs that i could never listen to all i thought was pain when i heard this song.until about the end of last summer when it came on when i was driving home from work and it came on and i didnt even realize that the song was on, and i was just singing away. well since i have been listening to pretty much all mae all the time these past few days...this song...has a new life and a new meaning for me. i listened the lyrics a little more closer. it has such powerful lyrics...

i guess when you are happy and in the right frame of mind....an old song can take on new meaning.

the sun and the moon - by mae.

Wasted time. I cannot say that I was ready for this. But when worlds collide, and all that I have is all that I want. The words seem to flow and the thoughts they keep running. And all that I have is yours. All that I am is yours. Ohh... Painted skies. I've seen so many that cannot compare to your ocean eyes. The pictures you took that cover your room, and it was just like the sun but more like the moon. A light that can reach it all. So now I'm branded for taking the fall. Ohh... So when you say forever, can't you see you've already captured me.

what's love got to do with it?

2009-04-22T06:31:00.000-07:00

3 If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,but have not love, I gain nothing.
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails.

1 Corinthians 13 : 3-8

it is always good to be reminded just what love is....

:)

2009-04-15T09:13:00.000-07:00

trust-in HIS timing

rely-on HIS promises

wait-for HIS answers

believe-in HIS miracles

rejoice-in HIS goodness

relax- in HIS presence

Come near to God and He will come near to you.

James 4: 8

ok its alright with me.

2009-04-10T09:16:00.000-07:00

so my favorite song right now. i love me some eric hutchinson!

i still believe in your faithfulness...

2009-04-09T06:45:00.000-07:00

i was driving in my jeep the other day and this song
came on the radio. i stopped for a second and thought "man i have not heard this song in a long time...". but it came to me just at the right time in life as a reminder to myself, that even though the world seems like it is ending or im just in this really dark place. that i still believe, in God. that he has my life in his hands. i am thankful for his grace, and his mercy that he gives me everyday.and that i need to learn to listen a little more clearly to his will than having my own plans and try to do what i want to do.be a better example to those that are around me of what i stand for and who i stand for. i am challenging myself to do some changing a needed change in my life...to be a better woman of Christ.

the video above i found on youtube. it isn't the jeremy camp video...but still has an awesome message. listen to the words and watch the video carefully and hope that this song blesses you today.

love lockdown

2009-03-20T10:32:00.000-07:00

i have two of my really close friends going through a tough time with there signifcant others. so it makes me ask myself why do we as humans put up with being treated bad? i mean we all are not perfect and we all are humans and we do make mistakes in relationships. but why do we put up with being treated like crap in relationships?! it amazes me how much people will take and things they go through because they 'love' someone. man that love it does silly things to people make them act all sorts of crazy. i mean i have not always been in perfect relationships, but looking on from the outside in you def get a good look at it. don't we all just wanna be happy? dont we all want the freedom to do what we want when we want? dont we all want to trust?. i think we all deserve to be happy. relationships are 50 50. it is all about the communication. the trust. and you know what just having a good time with each other. it should be nothing more or less. it shouldn't be that hard. well i think it shouldn't be that hard. relationships are something that always need to be worked on. but it is another thing, if you know you aren't happy. and you stick around and stay. come on. get out and be happy. life is just way to short not to be happy. so if you aren't happy. get that backbone and leave. be strong. and dont look back. and find that one person in life who will treat you right...i just think because of all the stuff that has gone on in my life in past relationships...im not gonna put up with guys and being treated like crap. we all deserve our happy ending. our fairytale. and our prince charming to come in on a white horse and saving the day. yes maybe i am stuck in fairtale land...but i think ( yes even guys you too...you deserve your princess too...) everyone needs to be happy. happy in life. happy in relationships. be content with who you are. and if you find that someone who makes you a better person. dont let them go. just be happy.

also...i am doing this biggest loser thing at work. and i have lost a total of 5.5 pounds in 3 weeks :) and i was the biggest loser this week!!!! :). not like i am trying to loose a ton of weight...but summer is a coming...and you all know what that means...bathing suit time. trying to look good ya know :) haha.

things in life right now. are amazing. im just really happy, happier than i have been in awhile and it is crazy how life can turn around in only just a few weeks ;)

there's alot that i dont know, there's alot that im still learning.

2009-03-15T16:34:00.000-07:00

so it has been a little while that i have blogged. since i know someone reads this ;) hehe. but there has been a lot of stuff going on. the lastest and the greatest i have been sick it feels like FOREVER. i am so over having the sniffles it isn't funny. i am feeling 100% better. but the whole house hold has been sick for like a week or so. brendan. linz. and rob. but were getting there. i was out of work for two days last week.

so the dumbest movie ever....would be this one.

last night linz and i had 'sister time' so we were like lets get a movie. we were both looking forward to the movie. well it was over and she and i were looking at each other like what the heck was that? oh yes....the suckest movie ever. i guess what i got out of it. was that love gives second chances. and where you might least expect it. but really....read the book dont go see the movie.

but really...i agree with the whole love and second chances. i mean for some people they get it right the first time. but for the majority of the rest of the world. it takes us a few chances to find that someone that we 'love'. but again. love is worth the risk of getting your heartbroken a few times to find your best friend and to find that someone who you will spend the rest of your life with. im ready to do that. ;)

so i am SO PUMPED for concert season. really. im way overdue for a good concert. my list is def. growing. guess i need to save save save. so that i can actually get to these shows. if you know what i mean. last summer concert season was the BOMB and i to see a lot of people that i hadn't before...and this summer is shaping up to do the same thing. i am SO excited. im ready... because i am over this whole rain that we have had for like 3 days straight now...crazy. haha. summer where are you?

things have been really good these last few weeks....im really excited and ready for summer and hanging out with my friends and my family. i have a feeling it is going to rock :)

simply genius.

2009-02-28T09:20:00.000-08:00

this movie. is awesome. amazing.

go see it. or get the book.

leaving me stranded all in love on my own.

2009-02-26T18:29:00.000-08:00

say you're sorry, that face of an angel

comes out just when you need it to

as i paced back and forth all this time

cause i honestly believed in you

holding on the days drag on

stupid girl, i should've known

i should've known

im not a princess, this aint a fairytale

im not the one you'll sweep off her feet

lead her up the stairwell

this aint hollywood, this is a small town

i was a dreamer before you went and let me down

now it's to late for you and your white horse

to come around

maybe i was naive, got lost in your eyes

and never really had a chance

my mistake, i didn't know to be in love

you had to fight to have the upper hand

i had so many dreams about you and me

happy endings, well now i know

im not a princess, this aint a fairytale

im not the one you'll sweep off her feet

lead her up the stairwell

this aint hollywood, this is a small town

i was a dreamer before you went and let me down

now it's too late for you and your white horse

to come around

and there you are in your knees

begging for forgiveness, begging for me

just like i always wanted, but im so sorry...

cause im not your princess, this aint a fairytale

im gonna find someone someday

who might actually treat me well

this is a big world, that was a small town

there in my rearview mirror disappearing now

and its to late for you and your white horse

now its to late for you and your white horse

to catch me now...

its too late to catch me now...

show me what im looking for...

2009-02-22T19:35:00.000-08:00

this is going to be a random blog...just a heads up before you start reading...

so one of my very best friends...is going through a heartbroken situation right now. i feel for her. cuz i was there before. and she def. helped me through it. i wanted to return the favor. i hate to see people hurt. i feel like i take on peoples feelings and thoughts cuz i want to help them or to fix the problem. and because it is dealing with a broken heart. i don't want anyone to go through that....it sucks. but really. it is crazy what love makes a person do. or crazy what it turns a person into. this over the top emotional train wreck when things aren't going the right way or they are ending or that they are over. the scars and the brokenness that we get from a broken heart...teaches us more than we really know and understand. for me. it made me a lot stronger person. and it made my skin a little thicker. it made me think a lot about myself...or what i did not like about myself. it made me a little to independent. but it taught me that, my life and my plans are not my own. they are the Lords. and we are to listen and to follow him. i may not know all the answers and all the reasons why. but He does. getting over a broken heart...it is hard. and it SUCKS. but in that time...you grow. you learn. and you move on. a little piece of our hearts will always be with that person that we did love. but you leave your broken heart open. cuz that is the only way you will ever find love again. so it is ok to put the bandages on. and take the time to heal. to work through the emotions and hurt feelings. because if you dont. you will never be able to move on. love takes time. healing takes a little bit longer.

so this weekend was super fun. i actually did a lot more than i had originally had planned. but it was great. i got to hang out with a really good friend a lot this weekend. she is awesome and i love her. we went out to plaza and cjs on friday. :) and saturday....went to the Liberty University Basketball game vs. ODU. it was @ ODU so i felt like i needed to support. so i went with the rents and it was awesome. i had SO much fun...it makes me miss college...really.

here is a pic from the game :) they lost...but they did good. it was great to be apart of LU again just for a day :)

but the rest of the weekend was great. i went and hung out with my friend and her family...was WAY to much fun :) they have welcomed me with open arms so that it awesome. today...well i woke up late cuz i was super tired since was out late both nights. so i got up and went shopping with my sister and rob and brendan. we got home. and i started to feel like poop and i still do. i need to be sleeping instead of blogging. oh well. here i am blogging away. so i was on the couch/bed all afternoon. i watched the race. kasey came in 12th :) go him. after i finish this...bed for me. really. i need to be sleeping...haha.

in other news....well really exciting news. im going to DISNEY WORLD IN JUNE! :) how cool right? Rob has to go down for training for a week...so he is bringing us ( me and linz), down for the week and were gonna go hang with mickey for a week! SO excited. really disney world is the ' happiest place on earth...'. i cant help but smile when i think about it. so i am SO jazzed that i get to go somewhere on VACATION this year...well somewhere cool....not just hanging here in the 757. so here are some pics from my last visit. with linz and rob. we went the day after i graduated from college. may of 2006.

me and piglet. oh my goodness you dont know how happy i was at this moment. i love me some piglet. totally smiling from ear to ear :)

me at epcot. holding the epcot ball in my hands. and rocking my 'geek in the pink' shirt!

so they have a place to eat called 'casey's corner' - from the poem casey at the bat. well it is my place. :) you know since we have the same name. great photo op :)

me and my sis in front of the castle. everytime i looked at that. it gave me the best feeling. cuz i love me some DISNEY!!! :) i can't wait for june.

so go pick up the kings of leon cd. it is AMAZING. they are coming here in concert. i am so there...

until then...

dude, is it Friday yet?

2009-02-19T18:17:00.000-08:00

i am SO over this week...really. i feel like this week has gone on and on and on. i have worked 4 days this week ( since we had Monday off.) But it has been the longest week. i have just been in this awful mood this past week. i was talking to a girl at work today...i just don't know what it is....im just in a poopie mood. so i say goodbye this week....and hello weekend :). i woke up today thinking it was Friday....for a split second...i was like yes Friday.i feel like i work for the weekend sometimes. use the weekend to get off enjoy life, friends etc. i just wanna go... i want a vacation...sit on the beach...drink in my hand ( with no bottom...). and just soak up the sun.

this is a picture from the bahamas...that i took. when i was down their 3 years ago.ahhhh...the life. i am known for taking pics into the sun...see but this one worked out nice :)

i wanna go back...and sit on the beach...and just relax.i would love to do that tomorrow....but enough of the dreaming about that...back to reality. the goodness is tomorrow is FRIDAY! FINALLY!

my friends have a show tomorrow night...im gonna go see them play in Norfolk. going to a basketball game...(go flames). then hanging with friends and what not. the normal weekend. i am just glad it is here....

' i've been roaming around,

always looking down at all i see

painted faces fill the places i can't reach

you know i could use somebody

someone like you...'

~ use somebody - kings of leon

until next time...

courage.

2009-02-18T18:03:00.000-08:00

what do you think courage means? one definition says that courage is a quality of spirit that enables you to face danger or pain with out showing fear. i have been thinking a lot about this the last week or so. in many parts of my life....i have shown no courage. i have gone off and run from my feelings and my own thoughts. because it is so much easier to run and hide than to sit and face facts, and face the hard things in life.

what does it take to have courage? how do we get it? it is telling someone how you truly feel about someone? finally standing up and taking responsibility for your own actions and your own feelings?finally talking to someone that you haven't in awhile and be an open book for the first time ever in your life? is it taking a step of faith and just "let go and let God". or is it something that we just have in us that we don't know how to use it. in fact i think it is all these and more. in my life, i might have taken the easy road in some things which in turn actually make things harder....strange how you learn these things after the fact....ahhhh life. it teaches us. it shows us where we fall short, and shows that their is someone way more powerful and bigger, that has our best interest at heart. He and only he is where our courage comes from.

'The LORD is my light and salvation- whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life-of whom shall I be afraid?'

~Psalm 27:1

it is so easy just to give up. so easy to give into those thoughts and feelings that make us run and be scared and not be courageous. the reason i am writing about this is that i need to practice what i preach. i am the type of person who is scared of what i am going to say that my words might upset someone, so i keep them to myself.....i am not courageous with communication. i feel that this whole blogging thing. will help me with that. but opening up and talking about why and how i am feeling things....is step two. just getting it out. step one. I'm learning each day. so be courageous...with your feelings, thoughts, emotions, decisions, and life. don't take it for granted. Don't go, stand up to it. Fight the urge to run. Know that someone is their to love us, watch over us, and guide us. We just have to be courageous to listen to Him.

Today was a good day. I got to sit and talk to a good friend. And talk about life, and love, and just made me think a lot about my actions towards situations in my life lately and that i dont need to be afraid but to be courageous. I thank God for friends who will talk out life with you. Who makes you see things you might not have seen before. Work was long i was glad to get outta there. Today is Rob's birthday. Can I say how crazy it is that so many people have birthdays in February?! We hung out tonight and played with Brendan and watched Idol...im watching LOST now...such a great show... but i wanted to show my new purse i got it today!!....LOVE IT. I have been dying with the purse i have been using lately. I am happy to have to new one. it is purple :) and it rocks.

' happiness feels a lot like sorrow

let it be, you can't make it come or go

but you are gone not for good but for now

gone for now feels like gone for good ' - happiness - the fray.

what an amazing song....great lyrics too.

until then...

im 25 and 2 days old..

2009-02-17T18:21:00.000-08:00

so i saw sara's blog and was like. i love that. so i wanna start one. i read peoples blogs all day. i love to hear what people think and what they love and what they hate. just love to see how people see life. so here goes mine.

so i turned 25 on Sunday. it was a great day. i am one of those people who love their birthdays. i mean some people just want to make it another day. i feel like it is a day for you. so i love my birthday! it is a holiday for me. haha. but i got to spend it with my family. we ate. hung out. and watched the race.

here is my cake : Linz and Rob made for me. with kasey's car on it :)

i had a NASCAR party for my 25th.. i mean if you people don't know, i love me some NASCAR and some KASEY KAHNE <3.i>

so another year older. i can honestly say that i am ready to embrace what 25 will bring and what 2009 will bring. i feel like i am on the brink of something. not yet being able to put my finger on it. but something is coming...

so i have been on a dashboard confessional kick for like weeks now. well that and the fray (people pick up the new CD amazing really...), but one song i just can't stop listening too.

' i want to give you whatever you need

what is it you need?

is it what i need?

i want to give you whatever you need

what is it you need?

is it within me? ' - ender will save us all

i feel like i am a lyric whore. i love them. they get stuck in my head. this one has been in my head for about a week now... love it. it is true and totally what i am feeling about life, love and the whole nine yards.